So, it’s been nearly a month and I would like to, firstly, thank my lovely guest posters for all their hard work and wonderful posts that have kept this place going whilst I’ve been silently squirreling away on my first love, my novel. If you haven’t read them, take a moment to have a look through and read some of their great pieces – some wonderful tutorials, blog help and a whole lot more!
Well, I say I’ve been off writing, I’ve done a lot less than I wanted in favour of a bit of, yes you guessed it, soul-searching! I spent a week in Somerset with my parents, reconnected with old friends and tried to get to grips with how to move forward. I’m a wistful old soul at heart and life has been tearing by at such a rapid and unexpected speed, that I have felt anxious and uneasy for the past few weeks and in need of some big life decisions making!
For quite some time now, I’ve been feeling at a crossroads with what to do with life and I think I might have reached my conclusion. The big thing is, I’m too capable of taking on tasks and projects and exciting endeavours without thinking about how I’m going to devote my time to each and every one and get them finished. It’s something I come back to time and time again and if you are a regular reader, then you’ll know how topsy turvy life has become in recent months. So perhaps it’s not a surprise to you that I’m struggling to fit everything around my family’s needs and, heaven forbid, a little bit of time for me too!
When I say I love writing, I really mean it, I love writing and I write because I can’t not! I write because it feels as natural to me as breathing, it always has done and somewhere, tucked underneath months of to-ing and fro-ing, are seven story ideas and a whole bundle of paragraphs that are dying to get out there. When I say I love writing, I love fiction, I love immersing myself in story-telling and, to be frank, it feels like the thing I was put on this earth to do. Which is why, after allowing myself to get back into it for a little bit and start looking at my future plans and goals, I think I need to start devoting more time to that, to those stories and characters which lay so heavy on my heart at the moment. Which, you guessed it, can only mean one thing, over the next couple of weeks I’m going to wind down blogging.
I guess you could say I’ve become a little jaded with the blogging world. There are some truly amazing bloggers out there, many of whom I have been lucky enough to talk to and meet. But it ain’t easy to keep on keeping on when I don’t really feel as if I have anything to say. Behind the scenes, I’ve worked hard to adjust to my life as a single mama, have kept to my ethos of spending a year without high street shopping and I’ve tried my best to keep up with everything as best I can. But, the truth is, when it comes to blogging, my heart just isn’t in it anymore. In a world of sponsored posts and social media etiquette, not to mention the pressure that you feel under, I don’t think there is any fun in what I do, anymore. And without the fun, there isn’t much point, considering the time it takes to run this site. I think I’ve reached a point where I want to devote my time to my true passions and ambitions, where I want to go out and LIVE my life, without feeling pressured to write about it. I have so much admiration for people who blog endless inspiration, day in day out, but I’ve realised that I’m not cut out for this, that my ‘old soul’ belongs in books and poetry and writing that will hopefully, one day, knock the likes of EL James off the chart!
So what next? I have a few posts to finish up – including my post for White Tree Fabrics, so I’ll be popping them up over the coming weeks. I’m going to continue to administrate #CraftBlogClub with my lovely co-hosts and, hopefully will have some exciting updates coming in the next couple of months. I’m still going to be active over on Instagram and Twitter, still plugging away on some DIY creativity and projects, so please do give me a follow (@LivePeachy) and stay in touch with what I’m up to – please note that I tend to Elvis-spam quite a bit on Instagram, I need some sort of therapy I think.
As for me, I’m going to keep on with the writing and see where it takes me, I’m considering lots of options for the future at the moment but I’m almost certain I’m going to book on to a dressmaking course locally, which starts in October, to try and hone my very poor sewing skills! D is growing so quickly, my house is taking shape and I’m generally feeling pretty cool – even if I’m little stressed, but just writing this post has eased it all a bit. Last night’s downpour was so refreshing, for the first time I felt pretty solid about what I wanted to do.
I wanted to take the time to thank each and every one of you for your comments, likes, follows and for keeping me going with blogging for as long as I have. Even though I’m a little jaded about the ‘industry’, I have met some amazing people through my blog and various social media sites and I hope to continue talking to you all. But I’m really grateful for all the blog love and I hope you all understand – it’s not you, it’s me!
Keep your eyes peeled for my last couple of posts and, as ever, stay forever peachy!! x